One of my goals this year was to stop worrying about things so much. I listened to Let it Be earlier this week – it’s my favourite Beatles song and I like the sentiment of letting things happen the way they will and not stressing so much. It’s almost a peaceful thought – going with the flow, feeling calmer, trusting that things will be okay. I can only hope to get better at doing this.
There will be an answer. Let it be.
I had a slip up already though. I was chatting to a writer about submitting to publishers and I had a sudden panic about the prospect of it happening. I felt fear. I described it as a writer freak-out on Twitter. I instantly had empathy from other writers – we do seem to be a neurotic bunch at times But recognising it felt like the first step in overcoming it. There was no point in my anxiety. When my book goes out to publishers I will have done the best I could do – I have worked hard on it, I wrote the story I wanted to and I found an agent who believes in the book and will fight for it in the marketplace. I can’t do anymore.
And when the night is cloudy
There is still a light that shines on me
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be
These words seemed really fitting this week. I spent the weekend feeling melancholy as I looked out at grey skies and a snowy landscape. Because everyday when I feel fear, I know that there will be another day when I don’t. If my book does find a publisher, all the angst will be worth it. I just have to believe that it will be happen. This is my dream, I have chosen this path and I need to focus on when, not if, it comes true.
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
I looked out of the window on Monday and saw the sun was breaking through. Relieved, I snapped a picture of it. I think it shows that tomorrow will always be brighter. There will always be light after the dark. There will always be blue skies on the horizon. I just have to let it come when it’s meant to come.
How good are you at letting things be?