Okay, It’s Friday and my office is quiet so I’m sneakily blogging. It’s a grey, rainy day in London perfect for some soul searching i.e. why is my life like this?!
I was watching Relocation, Relocation last night and envied the girl featured on it – she was passionate about dogs and her family and her were moving to a huge house with land so she could set up a dog training school. You could just see in her eyes how happy her work made her and made me think about how not happy mine makes me. Sitting in my quiet office stuck at my screen I wonder how I can find something that would give me the same spark she has.
It’s not that I’m not grateful that I have a well paid job and I know so many people out there struggle to get that, It’s just some days I feel pretty unfulfilled by it and when you think of the next fifty years doing the same thing, I just want to hide under my covers in fear!
We all dream of that new life, that nirvana out there probably somewhere warm and sunny where we have smile permanently fixed on our faces but how many of us actually get close to that? And even if I did move to the sea or find that pefect job or get myself a tall, dark and handsome man (Mr Darcy obv) would there be something else to moan about, something else to wish for? I don’t know the answer to that one. Sometimes I wish we had life coaches who could fill in the blanks for us but no, we’ve got to slug it out on our own and try and find that elusive right path for oursleves.
Enough rambling. For now I’m just going to tell myself that I’m determined to find something that at least brings the same smile to my face as the girl on TV last night. Because surely that’s what life is all about?