This week’s topic is a fight between self pity and self belief.
I hate self pity but I often sink into it. It doesn’t matter how many times you tell yourself to count your blessings some days, you still feel sorry for yourself. I wish I didn’t sometimes list all the bad points in my life, that I didn’t wish for more , that I would not regret things from the past. I wish I just looked at all the things that I do have and be content with them.
It’s human nature to see our flaws and weaknesses I think but we need to try train ourselves, I need to train myself to look for the positives, to see my good points and to use them to my advantage.
But maybe if I didn’t long for more than maybe I’d never achieve it. Maybe you do need to feel a bit dissatisfied with your lot sometimes because it pushes you to look for way to change things, to improve your life. It’s human nature surely to question things, to search for meanings and whys, to hope for better things, to want to hide under the duvet and let yourself have a good ol’ cry.
Maybe all I need to do is realise that I’m not the only one who might be thinking like this …
I wish I had more of this one. To have esteem, to think you are worthy, to feel you are capable – it’s so important to see yourself as someone who can change things, who can achieve their goals, who can make their dreams come true and who can be happy. To look into that mirror and be happy with the reflection you see.
It’s not easy though – sometimes I’m crippled by self-doubt, anxious that I’ll never be as good as I what to be or I’ll never achieve the goals I’ve set myself. I look at other people and think why can’t I be like them instead of being me?!
I wish I could swap the days I feel self pity for the days I feel self belief but I’m starting to see that there will always be both in life, I will always be torn between the two and both have a place. Both can help me make my dreams come true along a healthy dose of luck and destiny 🙂
Do you ever struggle with self pity? How do you make sure you believe in yourself?