Stressful days are a nightmare. Sometimes I can literally feel my pulse speeding up and my hands becoming tense, balling up into fists. I either want to scream or burst into tears. I want to run far away from the thing causing me stress and hide in a little ball somewhere.
At times like these, I have to remind myself to breathe. Take some deep breaths and force myself to calm down before I say or do something I might regret. Today has been such a day and it’s not over yet but I know it will end and tomorrow is a different day. I’m forcing myself not to get topo irrational about it and writing this spot is helping ease some of the tension already. Some, not all 🙂
Why is life so stressful sometimes? Is it that we’re forced to juggle so many things and deal with so many different types of people – work and colleagues, home and family life, friends, relationship dramas or anxiety, money and bills. We have to be constantly “on” when sometimes we just want to get away from everything and everyone. People even take Blackberry’s on holiday, always checking for emails or texts or calls, updating on Facebook, competing with others to be seen as the best. And what’s it all for? Are we actually appreciated? Does busting our balls actually get us anywhere?
I’m usually a calm person, I don’t let too much get to me at work as I’m aware there’s more important things in life and generally I’m pretty blessed but sometimes like today it all gets on top of me and I start thinking about exit strategies. Caught up in stress isn’t the best time to make decisions but if you’re constantly feeling anxious then maybe it is time to make a change in your life somehow.
Even if it’s just buying a pair of stress balls 🙂