I am a bit bipolar when it comes to thinking about love and relationships, unsure of what I really think about it all and what my love future looks like. I feel differently on different days so here are the two sides of my heart. Maybe I can decide which side I’m really on.
On one hand, I am a hopeless romantic. I love romantic films, stories of happily ever afters and dream that Mr Darcy is real and will sweep me off my feet any day now. I like the idea of soul mates and really want someone to love me just the way I am and for it to last forever.
On the other hand, my rose tinted glasses are sometimes foggy. I have been single for a while now so I’m pretty independent and that wedding day fantasy seems to be pretty far away. I have had bad experiences, I’ve been burned and I hear a lot about relationship dramas that I have no desire to get sunk into. I’m pretty cynical about finding a soul mate, most men seem to be useless at being “the one” and I rarely see anyone that I think might be a possibility for me.
Taylor Swift’s take on this problem…
When I was a little girl I used to read fairy tales. In fairy tales you meet Prince Charming and he’s everything you ever wanted. In fairy tales the bad guy is very easy to spot. The bad guy is always wearing a black cape so you always know who he is. Then you grow up and you realize that Prince Charming is not as easy to find as you thought. You realize the bad guy is not wearing a black cape and he’s not easy to spot; he’s really funny, and he makes you laugh, and he has perfect hair.”
— Taylor Swift
I suppose I’ll always wish for my own happy ending but if it doesn’t happen I’ll be okay on my own. And hopefully I’ll be able to spot my Prince if he ever appears and avoid the bad guys if he doesn’t. Because whether I get my romance or now, I know I don’t want to settle for second best, I want my soul mate whether he does or doesn’t really exist.
Are you a hopeless romantic or love cynic? Or like me, a bit of both?