Part of the problem I think is my head is full of stress regarding my unfinished novel. It is in the process of revision and I hate this process. It’s like cleaning, something you want to put off but has to be done. I am excited about what I’ve written and I want to get it out there but first it needs a good seeing to! I find it really hard to make myself sit down and do this, almost like my mind can’t process that it’s still part of writing. It’s hard to turn on your writing brain when you’re writing muse / motivation is failing you.
This reminds me neatly of a documentary I switched on the other night. The subject was Jane Austen who I love madly. I arrived at the programme during a part that dealt with the most intriguing part of Miss Austen’s life in my mind. Her time in Bath.
Although much is unknown about Jane Austen’s life, most historians agree during her years in Bath her writing stopped. She apparently disliked the city so much; she became depressed and abandoned her books. It was only when she moved to a new home in the Hampshire countryside, that she picked up her writing again and managed to publish four novels. It’s amazing that an environment change could have effected such a talented writer but I do sympathise that life can get in the way of writing.
Unfortunately, not many of us can write full time unless we’re a successful writer and that means we have full time jobs or family responsibility that eat up into time when we could be polishing our masterpiece. We have to write alongside our daily lived and it can be tough to fit it in. Sometimes I literally struggle to have the energy or brain power to do anything in the evenings let alone whip up the next great novel or indeed a brilliant blog post.
But I do need to stop blaming everything around me or waiting to be in that right mood. I need to encourage myself to write more regularly, to set myself smaller goals that work my way towards completing my novel and not stress so much so that I lose my love of writing. Because even though Jane Austen struggled for a few years, she came through it and produced my favourite books and if that isn’t inspiration, I don’t know what is.