As you know for the past few days, I have been feeling a bit down and lacking in self confidence, convincing myself I won’t be able to succeed with my writing. Over the last couple of days though, I have been feeling stronger and more confident and have gained some of my bounce back. I feel like my crisis of confidence is on the decline and am starting this week more determined than ever.
Some of the reasons for this change are:
* The support of my blogging buddies. I posted this great quote I found on Facebook – “Talent is helpful in writing, but guts are absolutely necessary” by Jessamyn West, and Lisa and Megan immediately encouraged me that I have both. Having such support means the world to me, I’m so grateful.
* Connecting with other writers. I’ve made an effort to reach out to writers online and it really helps to hear their publishing stories and I guess feel part of that world. I was especially grateful to Anne Van for her sweet response to my email and for giving me a success story when I needed to hear one.
*Giving myself a stern talking to. I’m still waiting to hear back from most of the agents I’ve submitted my manuscript to. This means it hasn’t been rejected yet. I have to have positive attitude that I can get a yes. And even if the first batch say no, there are more agents out there I can go to. I read about the author of THE HELP recently too – her book has become a bestseller and been turned into a Hollywood film and she was turned down by 60 agents until the 61st one said yes.
*Coming up with new ideas. I think worrying about my current submission has lessened more because I have come up with a new concept that excites me. So I suppose having a Plan B has perked me up because I don’t have all my eggs in one basket.
So I feel more hopeful today than I have for a while and even though I have a long way to go to completely believe in myself, I’m getting there and I realise that though this journey may be a long and tortuous one, it will be worth it to make my dreams come true.
The moral of this story is that I’m going to keep reaching for that elusive thing confidence and hopefully soon I can live up to this picture: