It’s very weird that your goal as a writer is to have people read your work but the thought of them actually reading it is terrifying.
I posted that yesterday on Twitter and I’m still thinking about it. I’ve never particularly enjoyed showing my writing to people to read especially when it’s the first person you send a new story to and yet my goal is to be a published author having hopefully a lot of people reading my books. I think the reason I feel this way is when you’re so passionate about something, it’s very scary to give it over to someone else – like you’re parting with a piece of your soul. What if they don’t like it and think you’re rubbish? Or what if they like it and it might actually become something great? Both outcomes are equally scary somehow 🙂
I wonder if this fear gets any weaker the more success you have with your writing. I wonder whether published authors become so used to showing their work to people they are indifferent to it. Or perhaps the fear never goes away because you stay just as passionate about writing as you were at the start and you’ll always be nervous about letting a new piece of work go.
It’s perhaps a similar feeling to musicians – some big stars will still admit to feeling nervous before they step out on stage and actually welcome the nerves and the adrenaline it brings, feeling that if they lose it they won’t care as much and not give as good of a performance. I’m kind of this mindset. I think the nerves I feel are a good sign – it means I care what people think of my writing, and I want it to be as good as it can be. I would worry that if I became too comfortable with it, I might have lost some of my passion for it.
How do you feel when someone reads your writing? Do you think nerves equal passion?